May 13, 2013

The Day She Went Away

Today was the day you went away.  The day we said the most beautiful goodbye to your earthly life and wished you on your way to heaven.   My dear Cousin, who is one year older than me died last week aged 39 years, after the most courageous battle with ovarian Cancer.  It was never a surprise to me that you lived for so long, surpassing any Dr's predictions about how many days you had left.  Growing up side by side you were a stubborn bugger, a trait we both share :-).  Today has felt surreal, I said to my husband at your funeral that I never ever imagined as a child that I would see your brothers carrying your coffin from a church, followed by your parents so obviously deeply grieving.  It is an image I never thought I would see. 
It isn't the natural progression to loose your children.  I can only partially understand the depth of this progression.  Loosing our two babies has given us an insight into what it is like to live as a grieving parent.  I pray every day for your mum & dad that they will go gently and remember the amazing life you lived.  It was a joy to hug your wonderful husband today, to sense his fragility at the emotion of the day but also to embrace his amazing strength and faith in God.  Your life has been an amazing testimony to others about faith.  I cherished catching up with before you got really sick again.  Its been hard living across the other side of the Country but when we caught up it was like we had never ever been apart.  Thank you for being my cousin, friend, childhood playmate, teenage rival and mostly a woman with amazing grace and strength.  I hope my babies were waiting for you in heaven mate with open arms.  Keep them safe and loved until we see them, and until you are reunited with your own precious children.  I am so glad on reflection my babies left this world early so they could be there waiting for you.
I love you Jules.  Glitter Gang forever xoxox.
The Amazing song played at your funeral below:

"Even If" Kutless

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