On February 22nd, 2014 a vibrant Australian TV personality took her own life at age 47 after a long battle with depression. I personally was quite devastated. Despite obviously not knowing Ms Charlotte Dawson I admired her strength and passion that seemed to shine through in all her work. She seemed a fighter and a woman who could really make things happen. I guess we can all see in her something of ourselves. Another reason I connected to this sad news story is that I know the place she was in. I am in that place now, and have been on and off for the past few years. Prior to our pregnancy losses I had always been susceptible to periods of depression but nothing like the darkness and hopelessness I have experienced over the past few years. I often think about the easiest way to end this ongoing pain. People who have not suffered from depression will never truly understand how hopeless you can feel, or how dark the world becomes. There is no "just snapping" out of it. I know I have done all the right things in managing my grief and sadness. I have take time out, seen a professional, talked to friends but I still cannot get through that tough layer of depression. We all have our problems and I know mine are no less or greater than anyone elses. I wish Charlotte Dawson much peace, she will be greatly missed.
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